Monday, March 20, 2006


Last fall, amidst the towering terra cotta cliffs of Sedona, nested in a valley of sycamore and cottonwood trees, I had the privilege of attending a workshop with Natalie Goldberg at the Sedona Arts Center.

In the mid 80’s a friend had given me her first book “Writing Down the Bones”. Heather could see I had a dream of one day being a writer. The book was a sublime gift. It showed me in the four years we had known each other; she had listened to more than my words. She connected with a restless creative spirit in me and offered my muse a path to be followed. While I read and enjoyed the book, I was too focused on building a career and finding excitement in the material existence around me. The shiny white paperback came to rest on a bookshelf that has since then leaned against many walls. For years it moved with me, second shelf down on the left side, propped between the “The Elements of Style” and a dictionary.

In those years, a gentle awakening began as karmic seeds ripened. I floated through a series of experiences that led me from ‘myth’ to an interest in Buddhism. A favorite pastime of lingering amidst the stacks of local independent booksellers had advanced the library beyond what I was able to read. The contents of the bookshelf began to change while it swelled with new titles.

One rainy afternoon I was re-organizing the shelves to make room for some new books. A perceptible shift away from fantasy fiction and books on cinema, particularly Alfred Hitchcock. The new recruits, Joseph Campbell, Huston Smith, Chogyam Trungpa and Lama Surya Das were standing in a row and needed more room. It was the spine of Natalie Goldberg’s book that caught my eye. Shambhala. I was immediately curious what a Buddhist publisher was doing amongst my scant collection of writing books.

Natalie writes from a Zen Buddhist perspective. While my training to that point had been more on the Tibetan side, I had been curious but immune to this angle years earlier on my first read. Though I immediately recognized that it was another moment of serendipity, while not cognizant, these teachings had become part of me.

I devoured the book again, and was left hungry by a single concept. A writer writes. In the ensuing years that little voice would remind me, while writing a business letter, during the birth of email, training manuals, performance evaluation, it was all writing.

Friday, March 10, 2006

It Starts.....

Angled and slightly propped up, a mere meter to my left on a side table, the supple leather covered journal watches me in an almost accusing manner. Is this the end for the Waterman fountain pen, shiny black with a brass pocket clip and midnight blue ink even now drying in the nib.

Is this the beginning of the end for the handwritten journal?

In some form I have more than 40 + years of personal writing. Vast tracts of uncontrolled musings. Bookends to hollow spaces of days, weeks, years, then back to inconsistent, spasmodic surges, of trite and self serving dribble. Neatly formed conventional and boring dissertations, controlled discussions of veiled emotions - expectant of a future audience. It's all there, words of prose, poetry and essays, and then the photography.

And now a new venue, anonymous but not private. Where will my fingers take me?